Grown men do cry, and it’s okay.
Have you ever been in a crowded room but felt like no one was there? The last few days have been a blur, my dear friend passed away on Christmas Eve, I learned about it Christmas morning as I was starting to prep dinner for my fiancé’s family. That’s how I felt on Christmas Day after serving dinner. I was sitting in my chair, looking at pictures and posts on Facebook about my friend. I heard voices chatting but it was chatter, that’s it. I wanted to escape to my room and cry, yes grown men do cry, and that’s okay. I feel like I’ve done a lot of crying lately.
I’m feeling like there is a huge shift happening in the universe. My hope is that this year will end and next year we will start anew with happiness and light.
I could tell you what I’ve eaten the last few days but this doesn’t seem like a post for that. My blood sugar was in the 200’s yesterday twice but it’s back down today so that is good.
I’ll get back to my old self with posting in the next few days but wanted to let you know that I’m still here. I’m just working on giving myself time to feel everything.